I woke up today thinking that I can do without you, but I guess that I was wrong. DEAD WRONG.
Karma strikes back, and when it does, it'll bite you in the hinney that every fleeting thing, and form of deceit, malice, and arrogance will come rushing back into memory, that you'll come to realize "yep. It's payback time."
Karma's a Bitch.
I have been doing things lately. Things that although I know wouldn't pass for a legit reason for a break up, or a fight even (and I do not have loose morals mind you), is still sure as hell, something that my significant other would not want for me to do.
I know this. I have known this all along. But still I do it.
What's driving me? You could say the lack of understanding; Self centeredness and a diminishing appreciation for my significant other...Or so I thought.
I have known all along that this is something that I should get out of - and quick! But I guess, it brought too much happiness (or so I thought) to a not so "happiness-filled kind of life" that I was not one to hesitate in investing emotionally.
I was not deceived...By other people...By my partner...By someone else. But let's just say that I was in love... Love. Love. Love. It's such a cliche...
Something gets screwed up, blame Love.
You get inspired, say it's Love.
You get inspired, then you get screwed up, you again say that it is..Love.
I have lived these past few days thinking that I can finally do it without her.
I even started to detach myself from her emotionally. or so I thought.
My time with her was lessened to merely "my spare time" when it used to be "my time".
I thought that I could finally be all the things that I want to be...and more!
I thought that finally, I am able to sort out my emotions, and finally I am able to realize where my happiness lies (and it's definitely not with her)...or so I thought.
There were a lot of deceptions for me these past few days...Not that I blame anyone for it... I mean, I should've seen this coming one way or another...But still, it doesn't change the fact that there was deception going on...in my mind at least!
I was deceived...I was fooled...I did these all to myself...I again, lived in a make believe world...Stripped myself from reality, and lost touch with humanity...The price I have to pay for which now is melancholy...
Karma strikes back, and when it does, it'll bite you in the hinney that every fleeting thing, and form of deceit, malice, and arrogance will come rushing back into memory, that you'll come to realize "yep. It's payback time."
Karma's a Bitch.
I have been doing things lately. Things that although I know wouldn't pass for a legit reason for a break up, or a fight even (and I do not have loose morals mind you), is still sure as hell, something that my significant other would not want for me to do.
I know this. I have known this all along. But still I do it.
What's driving me? You could say the lack of understanding; Self centeredness and a diminishing appreciation for my significant other...Or so I thought.
I have known all along that this is something that I should get out of - and quick! But I guess, it brought too much happiness (or so I thought) to a not so "happiness-filled kind of life" that I was not one to hesitate in investing emotionally.
I was not deceived...By other people...By my partner...By someone else. But let's just say that I was in love... Love. Love. Love. It's such a cliche...
Something gets screwed up, blame Love.
You get inspired, say it's Love.
You get inspired, then you get screwed up, you again say that it is..Love.
I have lived these past few days thinking that I can finally do it without her.
I even started to detach myself from her emotionally. or so I thought.
My time with her was lessened to merely "my spare time" when it used to be "my time".
I thought that I could finally be all the things that I want to be...and more!
I thought that finally, I am able to sort out my emotions, and finally I am able to realize where my happiness lies (and it's definitely not with her)...or so I thought.
There were a lot of deceptions for me these past few days...Not that I blame anyone for it... I mean, I should've seen this coming one way or another...But still, it doesn't change the fact that there was deception going on...in my mind at least!
I was deceived...I was fooled...I did these all to myself...I again, lived in a make believe world...Stripped myself from reality, and lost touch with humanity...The price I have to pay for which now is melancholy...
And so it goes, deceit equates to melancholy...
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